It’s been 5 months, I haven’t seen you after you broke up and left me but it feels like 5 years have passed. Baby, I love you a lot and miss you every second of my life. It feels like something is missing in me as ‘you’ complete me. Yes, I am breathing but there is no life left within me as you are my life and you will be forever. I cried and cried a lot that day and I lost my smile forever. I still remember the days we spent together and time used to flee away so fast that even an hour used to seem like a minute. Every hour of those Saturday’s you spent in my arms were like heaven for me.
Yes, your HUG was the best feeling ever, I felt like a small kid when you took me in your arms, the warmth of your HUG used to make me forget my frustration and tensions. I used to be in a different world altogether when you were with me.
Babe, I am sure you had your reasons, your choices but lying to me was not an option. I still trusted all your lies and accepted the way you are. But now, every single moment of my life I am dying, hoping for you to come back with your smile, which is the cutest smile in the world. My ears are dying to listen ‘Babu, I love you’, ‘Misshing my baccha, what is he doing?’, ‘Babu, nahi na kisshi nahi karneka’, ‘Mujhe Shmoke karna hai’. Each time I smoke a cigarette I smoke an extra one for you assuming that you are still besides me. I still feel the fragrance of the perfume you used to wear, which was my favorite, and my eyes try to find you hoping to see you nearby. Every single day my heart beats for you. I can’t find happiness anywhere else as I was happy with you and I know deep inside that I will be happy with you. I might be an idiot for the rest of the world, but for you I was me, myself. Many people say that it happens it’s a part of life, time will heal everything, you will forget her and you will move on, she didn’t deserve your LOVE but nobody said that she will come back, she will love you more than before except my heart. Nobody supported me as the way I feel except my heart and you did. You knew me, you understood me, you knew what and how I feel and how I am.
No, don’t worry I won’t call and disturb you because I don’t want to force my love on you as you said while breaking up that I forced you to love me but Baby, I swear I don’t know how to force someone for love. Out of entire life I have spent till now, those seven years I spent with you were the best of my life. I fear that I have to spend the rest of the life without you because I know I can’t.
I fear waking up and facing a new dawn. I fear my life. Where I was confident and strong enough to face the world when you were with me.
I don’t even know if you will read this, but I can just hope now. If this letter makes any sense to you, come back. I want to live my LIFE the way I used to with you before. I don’t wish for anything else, but a happy life with you. I believe you are my soul and my LIFE. God bless you and Love you forever.
-Parag Salunke ( Video Editor/ Content Producer/ Assistant Director/ Writer)